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Short Grumpy Entry

Wed Aug 9, 2006, 7:32 AM

Brief whiny shit today, bear with me.

God, I'm pissed off and depressed for the first time in several weeks. I suck, everybody else is better, and I'm never going to get anywhere or learn anything new cuz I'm a retarded piece of shit who fucked up in school and forever ruined any chance of getting an actual education on this artistic shit so I'll forever be that loser artist who pretends to be good and has the potential to be good but is never really good because he doesn't have a fucking clue what he's doing and isn't it a shame. In a week of obsessively practicing with this tablet I am not any fucking better, not one bit. I haven't figured out how to color anything even remotely better my inking is still total shit, I can't figure out how to vary line width like all the good artists do and shading and blending colors might as well be like writing in fucking russian because it's so goddamn foreign to me. I hate everyone who's better than me and I hate myself for not having the remotest ability to live up to their examples. Fuck fuck fuck!

(Don't take this too seriously, I had to vent all this frustration I'm feeling. Call the waaaahmbulance if possible.)

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~Narmowens-Axe Aug 9, 2006, 9:03:24 AM

Dude....you need a hug

There, don't you feel better now?

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~the1bigboy Aug 9, 2006, 9:12:19 AM

Dude, you can draw better than me - I can tell you that much.

~elliannah Aug 9, 2006, 9:44:34 AM

You do a LOT better than I do.

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If I am not for myself, who will be? If I am not for others, what am 'I'? And if not now, when?

~Umbrav Aug 9, 2006, 10:06:56 AM

Take a look at my drawings. That'll make you feel better! Everyone feels their art is shite and thats what the journals for. To bitch and moan about it

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~Grinner-McWolfe Aug 9, 2006, 11:39:16 AM

Take it from someone who it a Tablet user and who uses it prety much only for art: It's going to take a bit of time before you'll get used to using it. I don't use my tablet much for drawing and inking, but instead for creating landscapes where using a mouse is too heavy. Just keep at it, in a little while it'll be second nature, using that Tablet.

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~WolfmanX Aug 9, 2006, 12:05:55 PM

Dude. Your art was what attracted me to your comic in the first place. Then I kept up as an avid reader because unlike a lot of comics out there it's actually funny, worth reading, relevant, and the art style matches the writing style.

For what it's worth, like.

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~meiastar Aug 9, 2006, 12:34:36 PM

I understand your feelings...I didn't go to college right out of H.S. like I could have, and it's taken me 15 years to get back on track, but I finally am going back now. So you never know what's going to work out the way you want in your future.

I also, since I never went to art school, feel a sense of inadequacy when I see the young chillins half my age turning out work that's way better than mine. So I know that feeling too.

I think the best thing to do when you start to doubt yourself is to go back and look at stuff you did a year ago, two years ago, and so on. Progress doesn't feel like it's happening when you're standing there trying to watch it happen. Sometimes even things start looking crappier before they start looking better. But in the long run, you're always improving. That's just the way the brain works.

~LexBoBex Aug 9, 2006, 2:52:33 PM

AWW! Don't feel like that! I love your art and your comic! Don't stress if you haven't improved with the tablet in just one week! Give it more time and you will get better

And stuff everyone who you think is better than you. Forget about them. :b

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